Spring decided to show off her arrival in Colorado with perfect, 70 degree weather. I’m sitting out on my front stoop. Don’t remember spring being so loud. Doves and dogs and songbirds and squirrels all competing for my attention. All of them in pairs. It is spring after all, but I can’t help but see them as twins. Perfectly paired. A lone songbird is singing away in the tree above while all the others appear to be playing a game of tag. Is she over compensating because she is alone? Look at me! Or does she just have more to sing about? Wants to share it with the world?
I needed spring. The warmth, the green, the new life. Longer days and shorter nights, which is good for those of us who lay awake with the weight of the world as our bed mates.
Piper comes running outside, tripping in Tuesday’s too tight, sparkly-pink shoes. When I ask her if they are too tight she answers, “No, Mama. They’re just perfect.”
Spring
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I close my eyes and I can picture you sitting out there.
You have so many wonderful memories, these will be with you forever.
Hugs sweetie.
of course the shoes are perfect. warm spring thoughts and love your way.
i’ve noticed that sadness heightens my senses, as well. we’ve had a tiny glimpse of spring, but things are still pretty cold and grey here.
It’s a new season for bright new beginnings. Enjoy it with your beautiful family. I just added Tuesday’s button to my blog: http://www.skylarsclips.blogspot.com
Would love to give little Piper one of my clips or headbands. Would you look at my etsy shop and pick something for her? http://www.skylarscandyclips.etsy.com
god has his arms around you and your family and tuesday on his lap… bouncing her. and her giggles will be heard in every sound of nature…..
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Prayers to you and your family. Thank you for your words, they touch us all deeply.
I’m praisin’ the LORD for your beautiful morning!
One of your perfect pair is missing – I think thats been part of my extreme sadness for your family. When you have twins, you do seem to notice the pairs probably more than others. God seemed to like pairs! You have 4 beautiful children.
Keeping you in my prayers!
I love that spring is finally in the air.
I think about you a lot!
Hugs and much love!
I’ve read your blog for a while now and have never commented. Just wanted to let you know that I think about you and your family everyday. I’m not religious but I truly believe that Tuesday is some place that’s safe and happy, watching over you guys, especially Piper. I know that you will see her again someday. But for now you will have to settle for feeling and seeing her in the beauty around you. In every breeze and every ray of sunshine. She is with you.
isn't spring always a nice surprise? especially when we really need it.
just want you to know random people are still out here thinking & praying for you guys 🙂
Tears streamed down my face knowing that Piper seeing the shoes as perfect!
Praying for you daily!
tuesday is everywhere….she always will be.
God bless.
Hi beautiful Mamma –
It is such a nice day here in Colorado, it’s hard not to be outside! I just wanted you to know that today I’m sending extra special hugs your way – for whatever you may need them for! Let the sunshine soak in to help get you through another week!
Prayers and love – we love you lots!
Janice Rolfs
The weather here has been beautiful. I sort of dread the snow on Monday, but we could use the moisture and it looks like it will be beautiful again on Wednesday.
We think of you everytime we go on a walk. Its amazing that I think about people I have never met, I guess it feels like there is some sort of internet connection through that feeling of being a mom. Enjoy the beauty outside. The mountains are such a sight this time of year.
I think about you guys and pray for you every day. Hang in there!
Jess,
I love how Piper said the shoes were perfect. Maybe the lone bird was Tuesday’s way of paying you a visit. It sang the loudest to make sure you noticed it.
Hugs and prayers.
thinking of you often! Give sweet little Piper, spence and axel a hug from us! Praying for your strength every day!
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I don’t think I have ever left a comment here but all I can say is that I wish I could just give you a bug ol hug so here is a ((hug))
I am so sorry you have to go through this. It just isn’t right.
Lori
I love the way you share your thoughts. And what Piper said about the pink sparkly shoes gave me goosebumps. I think of all of you everyday, moments during the day that are just normal everyday things. Things that are different because your baby is no longer there. Jessica, you weigh heavy on my heart everyday. Praying for you.
Love, Sarah
Thinking of you …..
Children are perfect. At the perfect times. And boy I needed to hear that today.
You remain in my thoughts and prayers.
Delightful. Thanks for sharing.
Jess,
I am so glad spring has arrived. You will plant veggies, plant flowers and find some joy in the little things that give you some comfort.
I remember not too long ago you posting about Tuesday being a little bird… perhaps that bird singing loudly above was a gift from your little bird… to get you to see, Tuesday is everywhere around you…always, forever… with you.
I have to agree with Brandi about the bird, at least that was what I thought when I read your post.
I continue to pray for you everyday!
🙂
I pray that Spring brings more and more warmth to your days. I am so sorry, friend.
You have such a way with words JK – I can imagine exactly what you experienced this morning and why it was significant. We are praying for you daily.
love,
Erin
I can’t remember a time when sparkly pink shoes were not considered perfect. ;D
I’m glad you had a beautiful morning to take in all that is new this season.
Sending love, hugs and prayers your way.
Pink sparkley shoes are always perfect!
hugs
this is a perfect and beautiful post.
My friend lost her dad on April 20 of last year. It was a sudden and unexpected massive heart attack. Anyway I noticed all the flowering Phlox blooming everywhere that week. I think I will always associate his death with the blooming of the Phlox. I love this time of year. New life beginning. Hugs to you.
I think of the shoes that Piper was wearing, and immediately thought of the Wizard of Oz….”Theres No Place Like Home”…..especially on a beautiful spring day on the porch…….
You sure needed a bit of sunshine in your life. I hope you get more beautiful days like this and feel that your heavenly Father is wrapping you in the warmth and beauty of his love. It’s only a small taste of heaven. The real thing is even better.
Glad you’re having spring! Hope it continues!
The Lord knows everything that’s going on and is always there, working. I’m here praying!
Hebrews 4:13-16 Neither is there any creature that is not manifest in his sight: but all things are naked and opened unto the eyes of him with whom we have to do. Seeing then that we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession. For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.
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Love and prayers are sent your way continueously! God bless you and your family. Wishing the weather stays beautiful adn warm. Praying for God’s strenght and peace, hope and love. Grace and mercy. Tuesday is all around, and is continually changing people’s lives, mine included.
I am glad you had perfect spring weather. It warms my heart picturing Piper, in those too tight shoes, playing outside.
Praying for you, love you!
Perfect day… perfect shoes..
So glad spring is here so you can start doing some things you love again.
Thinking of you so often.
xoxoxo
awwww mama. thinking of you all the time. may you have blessings of beautiful days, lots of laughter, and precious memories during this wonderful season of new beginnings.
hugs,
suz steece
So glad that the arrival of Spring is lifting you up, even a little bit. Still thinking of you all so often.
Hugs 🙂
Jessica, I got your message on my blog and I would love to talk. I’ll send you another email with my contact info. Our lives and nightmares are way too similar right now…I am praying for you all everyday! Love, Ashley (Webb’s mom) ashleybroach.blogspot.com
Blessings and hugs to you and your family! I am certain you are hearing Tuesday in the songs of the birds, that you’ll be reminded of her as butterflies fly and you’ll feel her as the winds blow.
hi jessica – i thought of you last night when i watched "the secret life of bees". it's a beautiful movie & touches some themes of what you're going through right now. i really want to read the book now 🙂
anyway, i know i don't know you – i just can't help but think & pray for you often.
love & hugs.
how can sparkly, pink shoes be anything but perfect? my girlies love them too. and i, too, am glad for the spring…
Isn’t it amazing how Spring just shows up overnight here in Colorado? I noticed today my grass has signs of life under that crunchy brown dead stuff, and my lavender bushes have green buds peeking out from their arms. I swear yesterday everything looked dull and lifeless.
Piper in Tuesday’s shoes…so sweet.
My prayers are always with you.
Tamara
You are amazing. Your family is amazing. You are a true testament to love….unconditional love. Thank you for sharing your joys, heartaches, tears, your sorrow and your smiles. Still praying for you and your family.
what a wonderful welcome!
I can just picture Piper in the sparkly shoes…. she’s right, they ARE perfect, even if they’re too tight. (((hugs)))
hey there, thank you for stopping over to my blog… i live in nashville and spent the entire day today loving this beautiful spring weather. the trees are blooming in all differant colors and it’s warm and sunny. thank you for praying for us and i will pray for you and your family as well. i am so sorry for the loss of your precious tuesday..
Time does March on…Bittersweet…
I like many commenting here find great significance with the lone songbird. You once said Tuesday was your little bird and you were fighting so hard to "fix" her, I truly believe that the lone songbird was another sign that your precious baby girl Tuesday is with you always! We think about your family everyday. We continue to pray for strength, health, and healing for all. We are sending each of you great big hugs!
Heather Lyons & kids
Know that your family is always in my thoughts and prayers!
Jeremiah 17:7-8 Blessed is the man that trusteth in the LORD, and whose hope the LORD is. For he shall be as a tree planted by the waters, and that spreadeth out her roots by the river, and shall not see when heat cometh, but her leaf shall be green; and shall not be careful in the year of drought, neither shall cease from yielding fruit.
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I continue to pray for you each day. I am a prayer warrior for the COLEs Foundation and have come across many families who have lost their precious baby’s to this wretched disease; however, Tuesday’s precious little face is the one I hold on to. May the Lord give you peace and comfort of His will, may each day be filled with more peace than the last, and may you be flooded wiht memories of your baby girl. God bless you,
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Lindsay Manfull
I pray for you continually. I am a prayer warrior for Cole’s Foundation and have prayed for countless families who have lost their precious babies to this wretched disease; however, Tuesday is the one that sticks out in my heart. Her precious face, her precious name, your perfect family with so much love. While praying for some children today, Tuesday’s face popped in my mind and I was again reminded of her perfection. May the Lord guide you through these next steps of life ahead filling each day with more peace than the last. God bless you,
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Lindsay Manfull
It’s Tuesday and I’m thinking of yours…I always do on her day.
I have this quote on my kitchen window sill surrounded by pictures of the children in our family who have died:
“They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old:
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning
We will remember them.”
You and your beautiful family are in my prayers.
Can you say a prayer for baby stellan, son of Mckmama, from mycharmingkids blogspot. Her son’s heart is in a bad rhythm and its touch and go. I found you and prayed for tuesday thru mckmama!
I can’t say anything to take away the pain but I can say that your writing is extraordinary and I thank you for sharing Tuesday with me. I feel as if I got to know her through your writing and her little life touched me.
Sending you thoughts of peace.
These words never cease to amaze me. Chronologically they were some of the first words of Scripture ever written…praying so from Seattle right now!
Job 19:25-27 For I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth: And though after my skin worms destroy this body, yet in my flesh shall I see God: Whom I shall see for myself, and mine eyes shall behold, and not another; though my reins be consumed within me.
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Jessica… I am thrilled to get to know you, your site, your story through Tonya. Her comment was precisely why we at Mom It Forward had that giveaway. When Park City Mountain Resort chose that entry and I reviewed it, I knew you were the perfect choice. They specifically said they chose you because you so perfectly matched so many of the criteria we had identified for the giveaway… that you had an amazing challenge but still uplifted others and truly embraced the Mom It Forward mission.
I am excited to know you, read your blog, learn from you through your challenges, and cry with you as I read your touching posts.
I hope this vacation package can add a bit of joy to you and your family’s lives this summer.
I’d love to meet you when you are here. E-mail us at momitforward [at] gmail [dot] come for more information and to connect.
Sincerely,
jyl
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What a perfect little girl you have as well.
Enjoy spring.
hugs!
May Spring bring joy to your heart and good memories girl! Love and light to you.